This evening I emailed one of the officers my dad had filed a report with, actually my dad used to work with him but that’s another story. I figured, since noone else seems to be able to answer my questions, I’d seek out someone who could. Or I at least hope can. We’ll see what fruits this one bares I guess.

My mum rang to find out my decision & I pretty much told her she’d have to wait. She really expected me to make a decision right there & then. But you know what, forget that, what’s more important right now is the fact that I asked my dad if my abuser had been made aware of things yet. His reply was that he’d be surprised if his wife hadn’t spoken to him yet. So, evidently shit’s gone down. I don’t know what, but it has. He knows & this makes me lean more toward making a statement. Perhaps even in a “get in there first” fashion. But like I said in my email to this officer, I feel as though I’d be opening Pandora’s Box. Some might say it’s already open I guess.. but, my mum actually said that doing this would bring me “Closure”. This is not closure, this is only the beginning of something huge. If I go forward with this, the legalities will last years.. Everyone I’ve spoken to, every case I’ve read about has lasted years. It’s like the teeny tiny snow flake that’s about to form a snowball that’s about to roll down the freakin’ mountain to kill all the townspeople. Are you shitting me? I’m shitting me. Quite frankly.

I’m feeling pretty fired up after hearing what I have though. It kinda puts a different perspective on things….

Hmm.