Comments on: The Sinserest Form of Flattery http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/2008/07/24/the-sinserest-form-of-flattery/ The Girl was Brave. Fearless was Easy, but Brave . . .Brave was Hard. Mon, 09 Nov 2009 02:46:50 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 By: AudaciousAria http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/2008/07/24/the-sinserest-form-of-flattery/#comment-199 AudaciousAria Sat, 26 Jul 2008 05:27:52 +0000 http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/?p=225#comment-199 Cristina; I was reading about Boost on your blog today yeah.. & I've seen those bars, I might try their Luna minis sometime. Eugh, just the thought of eating in the morning makes me feel sick but.. most important meal of the day & all ahe? Heh.. Zoe; Welcome to my life ;) Amazing how little it can take for my mood to shift like it has. I mean we are literally talking me walking past 3 skinny girls & ending up wanting to throw away nearly 4 months self injury free. Sigh. It's always been like this. It's a fucking nightmare. I too have huge trouble with compliments. My instinct is to say something smart or even, in my worst times, go & SI. <i>As abuse survivors, I think that the sense of having control over ourselves is very important, and sometimes we take it too far.</i> I feel the need to control myself & everything around me more & more these days, especially when things get tough.. I think you're right, I sure as hell don't take the healthy routes. Sometimes I see that light you mentioned, but it never seems to get any closer..it's like trying to catch something (or run away from something) in a dream you know? Cristina;

I was reading about Boost on your blog today yeah.. & I’ve seen those bars, I might try their Luna minis sometime. Eugh, just the thought of eating in the morning makes me feel sick but.. most important meal of the day & all ahe? Heh..

Zoe;

Welcome to my life ;) Amazing how little it can take for my mood to shift like it has. I mean we are literally talking me walking past 3 skinny girls & ending up wanting to throw away nearly 4 months self injury free. Sigh. It’s always been like this. It’s a fucking nightmare.

I too have huge trouble with compliments. My instinct is to say something smart or even, in my worst times, go & SI.

As abuse survivors, I think that the sense of having control over ourselves is very important, and sometimes we take it too far.

I feel the need to control myself & everything around me more & more these days, especially when things get tough.. I think you’re right, I sure as hell don’t take the healthy routes.

Sometimes I see that light you mentioned, but it never seems to get any closer..it’s like trying to catch something (or run away from something) in a dream you know?

]]> By: Cristina http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/2008/07/24/the-sinserest-form-of-flattery/#comment-196 Cristina Sat, 26 Jul 2008 04:18:45 +0000 http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/?p=225#comment-196 I picked up some Luna bars at the market to try for "breakfast" only with 1XX calories. As if my Mum would approve. She'd ask if if I was restricting because I'm choosing to eat something with only 1XX calories. I picked up some Luna bars at the market to try for “breakfast” only with 1XX calories. As if my Mum would approve. She’d ask if if I was restricting because I’m choosing to eat something with only 1XX calories.

]]> By: Zoe http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/2008/07/24/the-sinserest-form-of-flattery/#comment-195 Zoe Fri, 25 Jul 2008 20:17:10 +0000 http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/?p=225#comment-195 Youch! Tough post after a week of really happy posts. I am sorry you are feeling all of those awful feelings, and completely understand. As abuse survivors, I think that the sense of having control over ourselves is very important, and sometimes we take it too far. I have fought eating disordered thinking my whole life, but have manage to pretty much keep it under control since college. College was bad, at 5'6" I was down to 98lbs...too little. Really the only thing that has helped me to not hate myself around "attractive" women is years of therapy (about 3 now) and my wonderful supportive husband. Every time he compliments me, my gut instinct is to say something sarcastic back, he is slowly training me out of that, to the point I actually feel pretty sometimes. It is a long hard road, but I do believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel for you. Now go hug that kitty of yours and let him make you feel better. :) Hugs, Zoe Youch! Tough post after a week of really happy posts. I am sorry you are feeling all of those awful feelings, and completely understand.
As abuse survivors, I think that the sense of having control over ourselves is very important, and sometimes we take it too far.
I have fought eating disordered thinking my whole life, but have manage to pretty much keep it under control since college. College was bad, at 5′6″ I was down to 98lbs…too little.
Really the only thing that has helped me to not hate myself around “attractive” women is years of therapy (about 3 now) and my wonderful supportive husband. Every time he compliments me, my gut instinct is to say something sarcastic back, he is slowly training me out of that, to the point I actually feel pretty sometimes.
It is a long hard road, but I do believe there is a light at the end of the tunnel for you.
Now go hug that kitty of yours and let him make you feel better. :)
Hugs,
Zoe

]]> By: Keeley http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/2008/07/24/the-sinserest-form-of-flattery/#comment-194 Keeley Fri, 25 Jul 2008 15:55:43 +0000 http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/?p=225#comment-194 :-( I started to do that this past spring but it's not nearly as severe as yours nor did I have a history of it. You can work through it. I don't think it's at all abnormal to replace one addiction with another. It won't be easy but I know you can make it through this. :-( I started to do that this past spring but it’s not nearly as severe as yours nor did I have a history of it. You can work through it. I don’t think it’s at all abnormal to replace one addiction with another. It won’t be easy but I know you can make it through this.

]]> By: Cristina http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/2008/07/24/the-sinserest-form-of-flattery/#comment-188 Cristina Fri, 25 Jul 2008 04:22:22 +0000 http://audaciousaria.wordpress.com/?p=225#comment-188 I'm recovering from Anorexia and I never ate breakfast either. The ONLY time I ate breakfast was when I was in treatment, and that was because they made us, or we had to drink a supplement. I’m recovering from Anorexia and I never ate breakfast either. The ONLY time I ate breakfast was when I was in treatment, and that was because they made us, or we had to drink a supplement.

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