6 months of re-learning self-control, self-management & coping strategies.
6 months of manic highs & extreme lows, but never giving up on this goal.
6 months of taking greater care of myself than I have ever done before.
We all know it’s not been an easy road for me, nor am I through the woods yet. SI is a daily struggle & it always will be, the urges are still as strong as day one if not more powerful but in reaching this goal, bigger than any I thought I could make before, I know now that it is possible!
I never thought I’d see this day, the mere notion would send me into a tail spin of self doubt & depression, believing that I could never be so strong. Yet I found the strength somewhere…
It all began with my meeting Bear last year & his influence on me & my life. He introduced me to love again & with that, I began to see myself in a whole new light. He gave back to me the strength I thought I’d lost.
I have to give myself the utmost credit though, as I was the only one who could truly make this happen. In the good times & the bad times I continued to utilize my gift & here I am 6 months later, prouder than ever & still marching forward.
You know what feels just as good? The fact I can now say “I go home next month”.
It’s hard to abandon the idea that hurting yourself is a good thing to do. SI can come to seem like a friend, but like any other addiction, it is not a friend.
Well done for reaching 6 months. It’s not easy.
HF x
By: hystericalfemale on October 1, 2008
at 1:43 am
That is a fantastic achievement!
And what is better than the achievement, is your ability to recognise it and be proud of it too. There is always the slight temptation to belittle our own progress, because of a feeling that we should be able to “Just stop”.Breaking a maladaptive coping mechanism has got to be one of the hardest things in the world, fighting yourself? What could be harder.
And only a month until you are home too. Things are looking up!
Lola x
By: Lola Snow on October 1, 2008
at 8:16 am
*Takes a bow*
Thank you! Thank you!
By: AudaciousAria on October 1, 2008
at 9:12 am
6 months…..
I’m very proud of you Aria, very proud and impressed.
You and Bear hang on to each other….sounds like the perfect match for you.
One month! Come on home, girl!
By: Slick on October 1, 2008
at 11:55 am
Well, one month & 2 weeks but yeah
Damn right we’re hanging on – *clings*
Thanks Slick
By: AudaciousAria on October 1, 2008
at 6:15 pm
YYAAYYY!!!!
Congrats!! I am so proud and excited for you!
Zoe
By: zoe23 on October 2, 2008
at 1:11 pm
Thanks Zoe
Seems ever since that day it’s been non-stop with people throwing obstacles in my way.. I swear I jinx it every time. But I’m trying harder than ever. It feels good.
By: AudaciousAria on October 3, 2008
at 11:07 am