My own eyes haven’t so much as glanced at my blog, let alone my fingers attempted a post. It’s been what, a month, give or take.
Frankly, I just haven’t been interested, in anything. Things in Scotland are at the stage where everything is a bother & a struggle. Sometimes even breathing feels like a chore.
I’m depressed & I want to come home. But with nothing new from Immigration, it feels like it’s going to be a long, long way to Happy.
I saw 12 months Self-injury free go by & couldn’t bring myself to mention it anywhere nor to anyone. Guess I’m scared to celebrate the fact when I so, so, much want to do it. It’s been a tight two months. I nearly ended it all 2 days before I hit 12 months. I can only imagine the carnage I’d be surrounded by right now if I’d actually gone through with it.
Anyway, I’m not exactly in the mood for a long, detailed post today – maybe next time – I just wanted to let people know that I’m still around, safe & well (questionably).
Hope everyone else is alright too.
Was thinking of you. My 12 months is coming up this summer and right now it’s hard getting through one second. So badly just want to throw this all away. Your right breathing right now seems like there is an elephant on me, daring me to even try.
I’m glad your still around, I’m glad your still hanging in. I’m gonna keep trying to do the same I guess.
Best wishes.
By: MeMyself&Who on April 4, 2009
at 7:12 pm
Thank goodness you finally posted. I know all this online stuff can seem sort of unreal, but I visit your blog all the time, and when you don’t post for a while, I worry about you. I am so grateful you posted.
One year injury free means a whole year that you win over them. It makes our side stronger and better ready for the fight. YOU GO GIRL.
By: butterflysblog on April 4, 2009
at 8:04 pm
Wow, thank you both for your enthusiasm & your support! I was looking at my stats & wondered if anyone was even reading any more. I really appreciate your comments, especially when I’m so low right now.
Also, thank you for the encouragement – I might just be feeling the itch to blog again now!
By: AudaciousAria on April 5, 2009
at 6:08 am